I don't want to leave you on the shore of this day dream obelisk
black sand cropping up and tides turn ominous
death dressed in moon beams mistakes me for a part of this
i painted all my skin with the wind for this partnership
sober when slobbering, convulsive and bothersome
my blood steeps in cardamom
pods in a spacecraft deny my escape route
when time pass
and burrow in the belly of a beast sleep in tall grass a dry laugh
crack on the back of your head
you were not dreaming again
or reading a book from the end
to finish upending the sentence that lead
apricot, lemon wedge, pack of pall malls in the sheets of your bed
denying your ghost by staying the host
or demon instead
or having nobody
having nobody
having nobody
and to me you are all the same
all the same
paper lights in the chest of a paper mache
hollow man who portrays
life without change or upgrades
pausing the seconds in sync
with music that pauses the same
to see what you've missed
I'm dying to live in the pauses you've skipped
lying in water so warm as you bathe

sorting through clothes to give to donation
I've been avoiding you
I've been avoiding thoughts and the prayers
donated from others
I've been avoiding you
hiding in plain sight
sight for the blind can't cope without music
or else I might lose it
help me with days in
can't spend no days in
quiet is music
I wasn't laughing or singing
I'm without music
hiding these remnants
little that remains
much in the way of the clutter
happy to sleep in
so much for others
little that remains
all of it detained
happy to talk now
I've been avoiding it
I've been a bastard
Sometimes a poet
find me in sweaters
never in robes
always in pj's
tie up my belt when I look indisposed
happy to stay in
never to go
you look incredible though
thank you I thought that myself
needed to tag you in photos
I wish you wouldn't
sorry i couldn't
stay for the whole thing
I was avoiding
bruises that remain
temperature rise to the top once again
Can't stand toe to toe with sympathy
truth don't run away from cowardice
beat it in your brains with your clenched fists
you'll probably stay the same unless you find your own way out of this